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Started this blog during the last few weeks of SEM1(AY2014/15) cos' i regained interest in blogging. I blog about anything - news, social issues, music - but mostly about my university life :) Hope my posts will help you to make better life (and module) choices! Currently a Sociology Major. Still fresh. xD

: Amelia Lim, 20 October.
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Just 1 year ago,
 i was mugging for A's.. giving my best shot but also trying not to get my hopes so high.

I totally did not expect my results! Like seriously.. I still remember one of my seniors saying that most students from Pioneer don't do well and most likely end up in private universities..

Well i was still mapling & youtubing during O's so i guess i deserved such grades ;P
I could clearly remember myself listening to DBSK, watching their MVs for hours LOL before the day for bio MCQ. Wasn't really focused in secondary school..got distracted by all the computer games, gameboy etc.
I felt bad disappointing my parents.. they all hoped-and i hoped- to enter ACJC as FMSS was affiliated to it. I disappointed my parents again.. they actually hoped that i could enter Nan Hua High too cos its a walking distance away from my house, but i missed the COP too. :/

I wasn't a really consistent student in JC. Consistently bad for math though. The only A i got was for my first math test based on sec sch stuff. Legit. Ain't joking LOL. Then it snowballed to B/Cs during common tests and during exams i would get Es..it further dropped to S/Us in JC2.

Econs was and IS still my favourite subject. I like studying the concepts and applying it to policies, evaluating my strategies <3 But i was weak at some chapters too..so my grades for econs were like a roller coaster ride but still not toooo bad. :) Proud to get an A for Mr Teh!:) It was really unexpected cos i was at the bottom of the roller coaster during prelims. Its really rare to get A during school exams and i'm just so happy i teared when i got my results slip. Its just REALLY UNEXPECTED. Because i have been unable to get into the 'top' schools based on my previous experiences. But that was when i was small and disobedient, "only know how to play". Now i've become wiser (uh hopefully LOL). I am not really religious but i prayed really hard that i could get into a local university. Expected SMU Info systems as the "best case scenario" choice cos i predicted that my best possible would probably be BBC.. and the worst choice..SIM. I hoped i wouldn't do that badly that i have to go overseas cos it'll be really expensive and my parents will not be able to afford it. My main concern was money. So i hoped i would end up in cheaper local universities.

I am really thrifty/ cheapskate lulz. Socialised to be that way ever since i realised most of my friends belong to a class of a higher income, and realisation that my parents earn much lesser as i fill in the form to apply for FA. They could go on yearly family trips to europe, or go to concerts, while i've never been to one. Family trips were always to M'sia cos i have relatives there. But it gets boring you know. Been there since 3? This year, we're trying to make it more interesting by adding Langkawi to our road trip. Sometimes i feel a little inferior, and i feel bad for wasting money on outings with friend to movies etc, especially so when it happens to be a bad movie.): Sadly almost every entertainment in S'pore requires $$. And its pretty expensive. USS, Sentosa, Movies, Cafe hopping etc. Sometimes I'd see my friends insta-ing posh restaurant food every once in a while and i'm just like, where did 'ya get da money from!? But we have all grown up and found ways to make money. Many have found their interests (hooray for y'all!). Recently found a friend who's a fashion blogger and worked as a fashion intern, gaining exclusive entry to shows and beauty sponsors. Pretty cool and happy for them! But i can't help but compare their achievements with mine. I really disliked my job during the post-A's period. Its was hella boring. But going onsite was fun. And the people there made it fun. Didn't like my boss though :/ I need to find more ways to make money lolz.

Some people have genuinely found what they like to pursue. Kudos to y'all!

I still don't know what i would like to do. But i certainly do not want my mundane job experience to repeat itself OH GAWD

As usual, i keep digressing >_<

Now i have a lot of intrusive thoughts which keep interuptting me from what i wanna say -_-

Anyway, getting in NUS FASS was really unexpected and i should really cherish this opportunity to study here #CAP5. I really hope to achieve enlightenment and get 1st class hons. WTS Sounds so shallow; amelia pls work hard okay. I am working hard. But i'm not internalising what i've learnt..

I'm struggling.

Being more of a introvert---no, actually i think i'm really selective about my friends, unknowingly---my road to adjusting to uni life was filled with many bumps ):

Being quiet during tutorials is pretty normal in sem 1 right hehe.

New people everyday. Became a pro in making awk situations.

I feel a lil uncomfortable, and not being able to live up to what i am.

I mean, the people that i'm studying with, "competing with" (for the lack of a better word.. but i really dislike using that term) are those top students not only from S'pore but all over the world...such a HUGE jump from my JC.. How am i going to think critically and give intelligent responses? Sound intelligent at least b_b

I recently joined soci comm and i really like this bunch of people. But i'm just not that close to them yet. The only "large" group of friends that i could instantly click with were my colleagues. Missing you guys!! we da fire breathing rubber duckies <3 But ya know I think it was because i was driven to ultimate boredom mode and my restlessness just shows and when i'm really bored, idk what people think about be and i'll just complain and talk crap. One thing i hate absolutely is being bored. Waste of time. I once cried cos i was SO FREAKING BORED. I wanted to do something, to play but there was nothing for me to channel my energy to so i was so sad i cried cos i was just too bored.):

Sounds stupid and funny but i really can't stand being bored. Bored doing repetitive admin tasks. Sian.

I wished i could grow close to people but sometimes i can't. I don't express myself well :/ But i really loved you all (my colleagues at ses) You guys made me the ME i wanted and liked to be. :)
Chloe, Frankie, Zhiqi, Abraham, Jiawen, Alicia, Sherina, Jia Her, Peifang!! Which made my transition to NUS much smoother!  <333

I hoped i could be that person i was to you guys, i felt that y'all made the best part of me shine. Cos i just felt so carefree with y'all. Most of the time la. haha.

I wished i could show that part of me to my comm too but its hard for me to cross that social barrier..i don't know why.

When i was young, i was pretty fearless and talkative and i always got scolded by the teacher..but i remember ever since that incident, i shut up and became a really quiet girl and lived that way through secondary school and jc...

I should've talked more. Make more friends. Lost connections.

But by being quiet, i observed people a lot as well..but still on the way to mastering body language haha.

Anyway, I hope i can live life to the fullest. And find my true identity. I hope i can help myself blossom, without relying on my friends like back then..

Gonna explore SG for cheap stuffs too and visit the free museums and get a good job so that i have enough $$ to go on SEP to Europe. Or USA. Or UK. My top 3 choices!! <3

Life is an endless road of self-discoveries, forming a self-identity..and i hope i will make a good one. I want to be sincere to everyone i meet. Show genuine interest. Accept them. Just like how i with you guys, and how y'all treated me with love back then. :)

Although i hated that job, i learnt alot from everyone. My boss, colleagues and friends. And also Auntie Agnes. I'm glad i went through that. And that's good enough.



One year ago.. i did not expect myself to be here.

But now i'm here, i've got to make the best out of it.

Cheers,

Amelia

Just 1 year ago,
 i was mugging for A's.. giving my best shot but also trying not to get my hopes so high.

I totally did not expect my results! Like seriously.. I still remember one of my seniors saying that most students from Pioneer don't do well and most likely end up in private universities..

Well i was still mapling & youtubing during O's so i guess i deserved such grades ;P
I could clearly remember myself listening to DBSK, watching their MVs for hours LOL before the day for bio MCQ. Wasn't really focused in secondary school..got distracted by all the computer games, gameboy etc.
I felt bad disappointing my parents.. they all hoped-and i hoped- to enter ACJC as FMSS was affiliated to it. I disappointed my parents again.. they actually hoped that i could enter Nan Hua High too cos its a walking distance away from my house, but i missed the COP too. :/

I wasn't a really consistent student in JC. Consistently bad for math though. The only A i got was for my first math test based on sec sch stuff. Legit. Ain't joking LOL. Then it snowballed to B/Cs during common tests and during exams i would get Es..it further dropped to S/Us in JC2.

Econs was and IS still my favourite subject. I like studying the concepts and applying it to policies, evaluating my strategies <3 But i was weak at some chapters too..so my grades for econs were like a roller coaster ride but still not toooo bad. :) Proud to get an A for Mr Teh!:) It was really unexpected cos i was at the bottom of the roller coaster during prelims. Its really rare to get A during school exams and i'm just so happy i teared when i got my results slip. Its just REALLY UNEXPECTED. Because i have been unable to get into the 'top' schools based on my previous experiences. But that was when i was small and disobedient, "only know how to play". Now i've become wiser (uh hopefully LOL). I am not really religious but i prayed really hard that i could get into a local university. Expected SMU Info systems as the "best case scenario" choice cos i predicted that my best possible would probably be BBC.. and the worst choice..SIM. I hoped i wouldn't do that badly that i have to go overseas cos it'll be really expensive and my parents will not be able to afford it. My main concern was money. So i hoped i would end up in cheaper local universities.

I am really thrifty/ cheapskate lulz. Socialised to be that way ever since i realised most of my friends belong to a class of a higher income, and realisation that my parents earn much lesser as i fill in the form to apply for FA. They could go on yearly family trips to europe, or go to concerts, while i've never been to one. Family trips were always to M'sia cos i have relatives there. But it gets boring you know. Been there since 3? This year, we're trying to make it more interesting by adding Langkawi to our road trip. Sometimes i feel a little inferior, and i feel bad for wasting money on outings with friend to movies etc, especially so when it happens to be a bad movie.): Sadly almost every entertainment in S'pore requires $$. And its pretty expensive. USS, Sentosa, Movies, Cafe hopping etc. Sometimes I'd see my friends insta-ing posh restaurant food every once in a while and i'm just like, where did 'ya get da money from!? But we have all grown up and found ways to make money. Many have found their interests (hooray for y'all!). Recently found a friend who's a fashion blogger and worked as a fashion intern, gaining exclusive entry to shows and beauty sponsors. Pretty cool and happy for them! But i can't help but compare their achievements with mine. I really disliked my job during the post-A's period. Its was hella boring. But going onsite was fun. And the people there made it fun. Didn't like my boss though :/ I need to find more ways to make money lolz.

Some people have genuinely found what they like to pursue. Kudos to y'all!

I still don't know what i would like to do. But i certainly do not want my mundane job experience to repeat itself OH GAWD

As usual, i keep digressing >_<

Now i have a lot of intrusive thoughts which keep interuptting me from what i wanna say -_-

Anyway, getting in NUS FASS was really unexpected and i should really cherish this opportunity to study here #CAP5. I really hope to achieve enlightenment and get 1st class hons. WTS Sounds so shallow; amelia pls work hard okay. I am working hard. But i'm not internalising what i've learnt..

I'm struggling.

Being more of a introvert---no, actually i think i'm really selective about my friends, unknowingly---my road to adjusting to uni life was filled with many bumps ):

Being quiet during tutorials is pretty normal in sem 1 right hehe.

New people everyday. Became a pro in making awk situations.

I feel a lil uncomfortable, and not being able to live up to what i am.

I mean, the people that i'm studying with, "competing with" (for the lack of a better word.. but i really dislike using that term) are those top students not only from S'pore but all over the world...such a HUGE jump from my JC.. How am i going to think critically and give intelligent responses? Sound intelligent at least b_b

I recently joined soci comm and i really like this bunch of people. But i'm just not that close to them yet. The only "large" group of friends that i could instantly click with were my colleagues. Missing you guys!! we da fire breathing rubber duckies <3 But ya know I think it was because i was driven to ultimate boredom mode and my restlessness just shows and when i'm really bored, idk what people think about be and i'll just complain and talk crap. One thing i hate absolutely is being bored. Waste of time. I once cried cos i was SO FREAKING BORED. I wanted to do something, to play but there was nothing for me to channel my energy to so i was so sad i cried cos i was just too bored.):

Sounds stupid and funny but i really can't stand being bored. Bored doing repetitive admin tasks. Sian.

I wished i could grow close to people but sometimes i can't. I don't express myself well :/ But i really loved you all (my colleagues at ses) You guys made me the ME i wanted and liked to be. :)
Chloe, Frankie, Zhiqi, Abraham, Jiawen, Alicia, Sherina, Jia Her, Peifang!! Which made my transition to NUS much smoother!  <333

I hoped i could be that person i was to you guys, i felt that y'all made the best part of me shine. Cos i just felt so carefree with y'all. Most of the time la. haha.

I wished i could show that part of me to my comm too but its hard for me to cross that social barrier..i don't know why.

When i was young, i was pretty fearless and talkative and i always got scolded by the teacher..but i remember ever since that incident, i shut up and became a really quiet girl and lived that way through secondary school and jc...

I should've talked more. Make more friends. Lost connections.

But by being quiet, i observed people a lot as well..but still on the way to mastering body language haha.

Anyway, I hope i can live life to the fullest. And find my true identity. I hope i can help myself blossom, without relying on my friends like back then..

Gonna explore SG for cheap stuffs too and visit the free museums and get a good job so that i have enough $$ to go on SEP to Europe. Or USA. Or UK. My top 3 choices!! <3

Life is an endless road of self-discoveries, forming a self-identity..and i hope i will make a good one. I want to be sincere to everyone i meet. Show genuine interest. Accept them. Just like how i with you guys, and how y'all treated me with love back then. :)

Although i hated that job, i learnt alot from everyone. My boss, colleagues and friends. And also Auntie Agnes. I'm glad i went through that. And that's good enough.



One year ago.. i did not expect myself to be here.

But now i'm here, i've got to make the best out of it.

Cheers,

Amelia

Sometimes I wonder how people see me and what they think of me. It scares me a bit, honestly. I am sure though, that what they think of me, what they think my life is, is a complete misperception. I have always tried to show myself as a carefree person, as someone who wont get bothered because of public judgements. I am sure my friend and family think there is nothing going wrong in my life, that I do not worry enough, that I am always happy. And I am sure they probably somewhat hate me for it because, lets admit it, there is nothing worse than seeing someone who is life seems so perfect while yours is a complete mess. Truth is, I have become an expert at pretending. I think we are all experts or at least we are getting there.

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