Hey there! I just changed my blogskin :) It's a little user-unfriendly because you can't navigate my past posts by headings or hashtags. So i'm gonna update the codings, stay tuned! (The font's kinda hard to read too..other than these 3 peeves, i'm quite satisfied) Follow me on the links below! :) 29/4/2015.
Started this blog during the last few weeks of SEM1(AY2014/15) cos' i regained interest in blogging. I blog about anything - news, social issues, music - but mostly about my university life :) Hope my posts will help you to make better life (and module) choices! Currently a Sociology Major. Still fresh. xD
(comment after self re-reading: shit am i going through some existential crisis, damn do i need to go church zz) Who doesn't want to be loved? Recently, i feel like i'm changing. Like becoming braver and more vulnerable at the same time. But i feel empty too. It's like i'm gonna collapse if i get hit by another blow, no matter how small it is. And, do i really want to pursue this? Have you guys ever thought about this: Man, where would i be if i weren't here, if i didn't major in Sociology, perhaps NTU biz? nah. If i were to make the choice again, i would probably still choose FASS. That's definitely what the old me would do. And the current me, well, still FASS, but maybe not Sociology? I don't know. But i'm already a Y2 Sociology major -- it's something i like, not love. For now. if i didn't join SociSoc, wow i really can't imagine. Maybe Film? Probably performing arts. Dance? Choir? Band? They are the people i hung out with like more than 50% of my uni life. I would feel really empty. I don't know. Maybe i would've been happier in a band. Maybe. Planning soci camp nearly had me z_z, i swore at some point that i'm never gonna do this shit ever but i'm still here. Yea, i'm still with you guys. Please cherish me :3 if i didn't do as well for As, SIM? A whole new world, and expensive school fees. if i was born elsewhere, the States? New Zealand? A whole new culture, perhaps i would be less hardworking and more wild. I might migrate, seriously. I think there's much more to life and Singapore's way too small to enjoy the finest things in life. Even though our education system's top-notch i don't really want my kid (oh gawd, kid?) to go through what i'm going through. But who knows? 10 years down the road our education system will probably change. alot. And the world may be alot more unstable, environmentally and politically. And maybe i might stay in Singapore? But for now i really want to travel elsewhere. if the sperm didn't meet the egg? I wouldn't be here. You wouldn't be reading this. if the egg met another sperm? uh..there would be another Amelia living a different life. so many ifs. But somehow everything fell into place and i'm here. I came to know you, you came to know me. But i don't even know myself well enough though. People come and go, and man it hurts real bad. But heck, i'm not being a coward and building walls anymore. But i really can't help it when psychological defense mechanisms that kick in. I will try and reach out even though i know i might get hurt. (Sigh) Because it's the only way i can feel happy, safe, and grow, and reassure myself. but i hope someone can reach out to me as well. Just keep poking me, the ice will break someday But the creator is thyself
(comment after self re-reading: shit am i going through some existential crisis, damn do i need to go church zz) Who doesn't want to be loved? Recently, i feel like i'm changing. Like becoming braver and more vulnerable at the same time. But i feel empty too. It's like i'm gonna collapse if i get hit by another blow, no matter how small it is. And, do i really want to pursue this? Have you guys ever thought about this: Man, where would i be if i weren't here, if i didn't major in Sociology, perhaps NTU biz? nah. If i were to make the choice again, i would probably still choose FASS. That's definitely what the old me would do. And the current me, well, still FASS, but maybe not Sociology? I don't know. But i'm already a Y2 Sociology major -- it's something i like, not love. For now. if i didn't join SociSoc, wow i really can't imagine. Maybe Film? Probably performing arts. Dance? Choir? Band? They are the people i hung out with like more than 50% of my uni life. I would feel really empty. I don't know. Maybe i would've been happier in a band. Maybe. Planning soci camp nearly had me z_z, i swore at some point that i'm never gonna do this shit ever but i'm still here. Yea, i'm still with you guys. Please cherish me :3 if i didn't do as well for As, SIM? A whole new world, and expensive school fees. if i was born elsewhere, the States? New Zealand? A whole new culture, perhaps i would be less hardworking and more wild. I might migrate, seriously. I think there's much more to life and Singapore's way too small to enjoy the finest things in life. Even though our education system's top-notch i don't really want my kid (oh gawd, kid?) to go through what i'm going through. But who knows? 10 years down the road our education system will probably change. alot. And the world may be alot more unstable, environmentally and politically. And maybe i might stay in Singapore? But for now i really want to travel elsewhere. if the sperm didn't meet the egg? I wouldn't be here. You wouldn't be reading this. if the egg met another sperm? uh..there would be another Amelia living a different life. so many ifs. But somehow everything fell into place and i'm here. I came to know you, you came to know me. But i don't even know myself well enough though. People come and go, and man it hurts real bad. But heck, i'm not being a coward and building walls anymore. But i really can't help it when psychological defense mechanisms that kick in. I will try and reach out even though i know i might get hurt. (Sigh) Because it's the only way i can feel happy, safe, and grow, and reassure myself. but i hope someone can reach out to me as well. Just keep poking me, the ice will break someday But the creator is thyself
“To put away aimlessness and weakness, and to begin to think with purpose, is to enter the ranks of those strong ones who only recognize failure as one of the pathways to attainment; who make all conditions serve them, and who think strongly, attempt fearlessly, and accomplish masterfully.”
- James Allen Quotes
Sometimes I wonder how people see me and what they think of me. It scares me a bit, honestly. I am sure though, that what they think of me,
what they think my life is, is a complete misperception. I have always tried to show myself as a carefree person, as someone who wont get bothered
because of public judgements. I am sure my friend and family think there is nothing going wrong in my life, that I do not worry enough, that
I am always happy. And I am sure they probably somewhat hate me for it because, lets admit it, there is nothing worse than seeing someone
who is life seems so perfect while yours is a complete mess. Truth is, I have become an expert at pretending. I think we are all experts
or at least we are getting there.
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: Amelia Lim, 20 October.