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Started this blog during the last few weeks of SEM1(AY2014/15) cos' i regained interest in blogging. I blog about anything - news, social issues, music - but mostly about my university life :) Hope my posts will help you to make better life (and module) choices! Currently a Sociology Major. Still fresh. xD
Time passed really fast this semester. Like whut next week's recess week!?
This semester has (and is going to) be full of challenges, stress, shit, pee, flies, zzz
Usually there are only a few main reasons when i blog:
1. Distressed so i am channelling everything on this portal to let it all out, strangely wanting some stranger to read it (aka anonymous YOU)
2. Happy and so i want to keep that memory
3. Some sudden enlightenment so i want to keep it here so it's easy for me to refer back to as well
hahaha. oh wellz. For this post it falls into no.1 cat. So if you don't want the negativity here to affect you please shoooo
There have been many ups and downs, this is not the worst yet. As you grow older, ranting (sadly) does not to solve the problem. Sigh. In the past i'd just complain and get over it. But life throws greater hurdles to you when it sees you jumping further, yea that's what it does.
I would say that this semester has been rather rigorous and enlightening, and i did many things that i would never have thought i would.
At first i was really afraid and stressed that i couldn't cope with my commitments. Like WTF did i commit myself to so much shit when i think i can't handle. It's because i just want to try. It's like, if i don't do it, i won't feel fulfilled with my university life. Hahaha. It's like that last time you can do such stuff with friends before entering the work force. Like i'll have more regrets if i don't. So just do it lor. But i'm still full of many buts.
When every thing starts pounding on to you (and this is not even the start), you'll start questioning what you do. Every minute. To maximise all the time you've got. Trust me, it's tiring. Capitalism, ugh.
I like what i'm doing now though, even though it takes up a significant part of my studies. And the problem is, i'm afraid- i don't want my CAP to drop below 4.. argh. Hopefully at least B+ // NO MUST AIM HIGH k. A for at least 3 mods? HAHA But i've been really REALLY blessed with good groupmates this sem. For my MNO, forever so enthusiastic and full of positivity, and Social Capital, which really turned out to be a blessing in disguise. I mean, having such a knowledgeable group mate can be really stressful, cos i'm always thinking how i can add on and they're always one step (BIG step) ahead, but yea its a life lesson and extra brain juice for me, too. They are really so patient with me (<3) so it makes me feel kinda bad like some burden but i swear i'll do my best. Either do your best, or don't do it at all.
Had a mini JC class gathering today, and there's always a sweet warm feeling when i see them, we've all gone different paths .. and its all determined by our grades. Thanks to Singapore's meritocratic education system, with a tangy taste of elitism.t It was really after the 1st sem i felt less surreal that i AM IN NUS LOL. Now 12th in the QS rankings?
It's a different world here, with friends who are engaging in deep convos politically and sociologically, partially cos we're in FASS. I have grown up in a circle where people around me, friends and family, aren't exactly fond of talking about current issues and academia (or at least listen to me talk about it, sobs) - so it was kinda hard to adapt here, but i like it. Nowadays i think about the very first choices that i've made, to join NUS, to join my cca, which really changed my life quite a bit. I was a talkative child when i was young..but since secondary school i've grown to be a really quiet person. Puberty? HAHA Now i talk abit more. I get that kinda feedback from my sec sch friends lol. I think sometimes, i just question myself too much. Where do my morals and values lie? Am i being myself? What am i? Am i making the right choice? I do certain things cos i'm afraid of being judged? To assimilate? Fear of losing people? Fear of looking stupid? sigh. Everyone has these kinda fears..if you're sane and you're human.
I've recently had a rather different thought about myself. About drawing (blurry?) lines with people. There's a certain line, once you've gone past, you can never come back. It may be bad or good, depending on how you control it to be. Something like a weak tie vs a strong tie. Some people you meet never get pass it. At least for the time being. Some are hopping about the line. And those that cross it are probably the ones most similar to you compared to those that didn't. Think about it..does it apply to you? They are the ones you would probably ask for advice when you know what kinda tips they would give, just to assure yourself one way or another.
I just had to toss my thoughts to this digital wastepaper basket.
Now i need to travel back to the 1800s and speak to Durkheim and Marx in my dreams.
Classical Social Thought. zzzz
Time passed really fast this semester. Like whut next week's recess week!?
This semester has (and is going to) be full of challenges, stress, shit, pee, flies, zzz
Usually there are only a few main reasons when i blog:
1. Distressed so i am channelling everything on this portal to let it all out, strangely wanting some stranger to read it (aka anonymous YOU)
2. Happy and so i want to keep that memory
3. Some sudden enlightenment so i want to keep it here so it's easy for me to refer back to as well
hahaha. oh wellz. For this post it falls into no.1 cat. So if you don't want the negativity here to affect you please shoooo
There have been many ups and downs, this is not the worst yet. As you grow older, ranting (sadly) does not to solve the problem. Sigh. In the past i'd just complain and get over it. But life throws greater hurdles to you when it sees you jumping further, yea that's what it does.
I would say that this semester has been rather rigorous and enlightening, and i did many things that i would never have thought i would.
At first i was really afraid and stressed that i couldn't cope with my commitments. Like WTF did i commit myself to so much shit when i think i can't handle. It's because i just want to try. It's like, if i don't do it, i won't feel fulfilled with my university life. Hahaha. It's like that last time you can do such stuff with friends before entering the work force. Like i'll have more regrets if i don't. So just do it lor. But i'm still full of many buts.
When every thing starts pounding on to you (and this is not even the start), you'll start questioning what you do. Every minute. To maximise all the time you've got. Trust me, it's tiring. Capitalism, ugh.
I like what i'm doing now though, even though it takes up a significant part of my studies. And the problem is, i'm afraid- i don't want my CAP to drop below 4.. argh. Hopefully at least B+ // NO MUST AIM HIGH k. A for at least 3 mods? HAHA But i've been really REALLY blessed with good groupmates this sem. For my MNO, forever so enthusiastic and full of positivity, and Social Capital, which really turned out to be a blessing in disguise. I mean, having such a knowledgeable group mate can be really stressful, cos i'm always thinking how i can add on and they're always one step (BIG step) ahead, but yea its a life lesson and extra brain juice for me, too. They are really so patient with me (<3) so it makes me feel kinda bad like some burden but i swear i'll do my best. Either do your best, or don't do it at all.
Had a mini JC class gathering today, and there's always a sweet warm feeling when i see them, we've all gone different paths .. and its all determined by our grades. Thanks to Singapore's meritocratic education system, with a tangy taste of elitism.t It was really after the 1st sem i felt less surreal that i AM IN NUS LOL. Now 12th in the QS rankings?
It's a different world here, with friends who are engaging in deep convos politically and sociologically, partially cos we're in FASS. I have grown up in a circle where people around me, friends and family, aren't exactly fond of talking about current issues and academia (or at least listen to me talk about it, sobs) - so it was kinda hard to adapt here, but i like it. Nowadays i think about the very first choices that i've made, to join NUS, to join my cca, which really changed my life quite a bit. I was a talkative child when i was young..but since secondary school i've grown to be a really quiet person. Puberty? HAHA Now i talk abit more. I get that kinda feedback from my sec sch friends lol. I think sometimes, i just question myself too much. Where do my morals and values lie? Am i being myself? What am i? Am i making the right choice? I do certain things cos i'm afraid of being judged? To assimilate? Fear of losing people? Fear of looking stupid? sigh. Everyone has these kinda fears..if you're sane and you're human.
I've recently had a rather different thought about myself. About drawing (blurry?) lines with people. There's a certain line, once you've gone past, you can never come back. It may be bad or good, depending on how you control it to be. Something like a weak tie vs a strong tie. Some people you meet never get pass it. At least for the time being. Some are hopping about the line. And those that cross it are probably the ones most similar to you compared to those that didn't. Think about it..does it apply to you? They are the ones you would probably ask for advice when you know what kinda tips they would give, just to assure yourself one way or another.
I just had to toss my thoughts to this digital wastepaper basket.
Now i need to travel back to the 1800s and speak to Durkheim and Marx in my dreams.
Classical Social Thought. zzzz
“To put away aimlessness and weakness, and to begin to think with purpose, is to enter the ranks of those strong ones who only recognize failure as one of the pathways to attainment; who make all conditions serve them, and who think strongly, attempt fearlessly, and accomplish masterfully.”
- James Allen Quotes
Sometimes I wonder how people see me and what they think of me. It scares me a bit, honestly. I am sure though, that what they think of me,
what they think my life is, is a complete misperception. I have always tried to show myself as a carefree person, as someone who wont get bothered
because of public judgements. I am sure my friend and family think there is nothing going wrong in my life, that I do not worry enough, that
I am always happy. And I am sure they probably somewhat hate me for it because, lets admit it, there is nothing worse than seeing someone
who is life seems so perfect while yours is a complete mess. Truth is, I have become an expert at pretending. I think we are all experts
or at least we are getting there.
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: Amelia Lim, 20 October.