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Started this blog during the last few weeks of SEM1(AY2014/15) cos' i regained interest in blogging. I blog about anything - news, social issues, music - but mostly about my university life :) Hope my posts will help you to make better life (and module) choices! Currently a Sociology Major. Still fresh. xD
Today's turnout was crazy, 18 kids to 9 volunteers. Sometimes i want to ask the kids, "walao why you never come last week? why attendance so inconsistent??" But in the end i rarely did cos i'm so busy.
Tried to juggle 4 kids but failed lul, lucky sam came and took 2 P6 kids, so i'm left with a P1 kid and P3 kid. Haha, i like their inter-racial friendship though. So cutez. Their "playing" seemed like "fighting" to me...so boys play like this ah..it's how i fought with my sis when i was young lol
Anw when it comes to teaching xi zi its another story. idk, i just feel shag on tues, so i feel that i'm too lax with the kids. You can think of it as striking a deal with the kids, or an attempt in bribing, or letting the kid trample over you LOL okay bad phrasing but i need my volunteer back LOL
I'M NEVER GONNA LET THEM TOUCH MY LAPTOP OMGGGG IT FEELS OILY EVEN AFTER I STERILISE
1.32AM, 6 APR, WED
(but i think i will still let the kid play agario lol) z
And ame please check the whole BSS compound before you leave pls pls ty
Random ramblings
I wished every volunteer will tell me why they cmi instead of me pming them
I don't bother pming them anymore
zzz
// One of those nights i wonder about why i started this projects
especially when i'm burning out
Am i really helping? Or finding areas where i think i can help, and perceive my actions as help.
What is socip's function to others? Sometimes i feel like we're a childcare lol.
Am i doing it for my self satisfaction? When i told the kids that we're planning to have a carnival, and they tell me they'll come - that just makes me very happy hehe :D But it makes me feel like i'm doing it cos it makes me happy. But of course that's not all, because i derive happiness from helping them and interacting with them....but it goes back to my 1st question z
I was thinking, do you really need fear to teach a kid. I think, yes. Humans need a fear - fear of a threat of power (i quote sam), fear of the unknown to limit and control our actions. I know the kid's damn scared of his mum, but when i was young i really hated it when ppl do "i'm gonna tell your mum blah blah" like wts, just deal with me la, drag my mum into this for what
We're socialised into this fear in the education system - fear of losing out, fear of being seen as lousy, fear of being unable to get into a good school, get a good job, and this pushes us and gives us the self discipline we need.
So i didn't want to threaten the kid with his mum...but i think for his own good i should LOL
Ahh i had many more thoughts when i was stoning outside but i guess i shall stop here
Today's turnout was crazy, 18 kids to 9 volunteers. Sometimes i want to ask the kids, "walao why you never come last week? why attendance so inconsistent??" But in the end i rarely did cos i'm so busy.
Tried to juggle 4 kids but failed lul, lucky sam came and took 2 P6 kids, so i'm left with a P1 kid and P3 kid. Haha, i like their inter-racial friendship though. So cutez. Their "playing" seemed like "fighting" to me...so boys play like this ah..it's how i fought with my sis when i was young lol
Anw when it comes to teaching xi zi its another story. idk, i just feel shag on tues, so i feel that i'm too lax with the kids. You can think of it as striking a deal with the kids, or an attempt in bribing, or letting the kid trample over you LOL okay bad phrasing but i need my volunteer back LOL
I'M NEVER GONNA LET THEM TOUCH MY LAPTOP OMGGGG IT FEELS OILY EVEN AFTER I STERILISE
1.32AM, 6 APR, WED
(but i think i will still let the kid play agario lol) z
And ame please check the whole BSS compound before you leave pls pls ty
Random ramblings
I wished every volunteer will tell me why they cmi instead of me pming them
I don't bother pming them anymore
zzz
// One of those nights i wonder about why i started this projects
especially when i'm burning out
Am i really helping? Or finding areas where i think i can help, and perceive my actions as help.
What is socip's function to others? Sometimes i feel like we're a childcare lol.
Am i doing it for my self satisfaction? When i told the kids that we're planning to have a carnival, and they tell me they'll come - that just makes me very happy hehe :D But it makes me feel like i'm doing it cos it makes me happy. But of course that's not all, because i derive happiness from helping them and interacting with them....but it goes back to my 1st question z
I was thinking, do you really need fear to teach a kid. I think, yes. Humans need a fear - fear of a threat of power (i quote sam), fear of the unknown to limit and control our actions. I know the kid's damn scared of his mum, but when i was young i really hated it when ppl do "i'm gonna tell your mum blah blah" like wts, just deal with me la, drag my mum into this for what
We're socialised into this fear in the education system - fear of losing out, fear of being seen as lousy, fear of being unable to get into a good school, get a good job, and this pushes us and gives us the self discipline we need.
So i didn't want to threaten the kid with his mum...but i think for his own good i should LOL
Ahh i had many more thoughts when i was stoning outside but i guess i shall stop here
“To put away aimlessness and weakness, and to begin to think with purpose, is to enter the ranks of those strong ones who only recognize failure as one of the pathways to attainment; who make all conditions serve them, and who think strongly, attempt fearlessly, and accomplish masterfully.”
- James Allen Quotes
Sometimes I wonder how people see me and what they think of me. It scares me a bit, honestly. I am sure though, that what they think of me,
what they think my life is, is a complete misperception. I have always tried to show myself as a carefree person, as someone who wont get bothered
because of public judgements. I am sure my friend and family think there is nothing going wrong in my life, that I do not worry enough, that
I am always happy. And I am sure they probably somewhat hate me for it because, lets admit it, there is nothing worse than seeing someone
who is life seems so perfect while yours is a complete mess. Truth is, I have become an expert at pretending. I think we are all experts
or at least we are getting there.
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: Amelia Lim, 20 October.