Hey there! I just changed my blogskin :) It's a little user-unfriendly because you can't navigate my past posts by headings or hashtags. So i'm gonna update the codings, stay tuned! (The font's kinda hard to read too..other than these 3 peeves, i'm quite satisfied) Follow me on the links below! :) 29/4/2015.
Started this blog during the last few weeks of SEM1(AY2014/15) cos' i regained interest in blogging. I blog about anything - news, social issues, music - but mostly about my university life :) Hope my posts will help you to make better life (and module) choices! Currently a Sociology Major. Still fresh. xD
24 Feb, Wed, 3pm Rain is stopping. Probably heading down to buy my watch later. Haven't worn a watch for years because i always get the cheap ones at bugis and it never fails to spoil lol. But i have to get it because i need to do timestamps for my SGH research, and i can't hold my phone and the recorder at the same time..so bulky. Had SOCIP yesterday. Boy, these kids are so naughty, but the volunteers were too nice to scold them. It's so funny, they all remind me of myself. You know if you asked the Amelia 2 years ago if she'd ever think she'd be here today she'll probably say it's impossible. University life has really been a great game changer for me, if you say life's a game. I've never imagined that i could do so many things, have such good friends in my life. I think hanging out with people at a different lifestage from you gives you so many perspectives. Sometimes i try to go back to the mentality when i had when i was a kid, i mean since i'm teaching some kids, (so i was thinking) how can i get into the same frequency as them to make them listen to me? There was this kid who drew himself with a sad face, with the words "I'm a retainer" on his working paper when i was teaching him math. He's 13 but in Primary 6. When i saw it i immediately used my pencil and changed it into a smiley face and I said "Why did you draw a sad face..of course i knew..ah what did i say after..? i forgot. Something along the lines of "i'll help you?" anyway i'll try my best to help these kids. and i'll try my best not to compare kids because it's the thing i hate the most. I hate being compared. But it's something that's innate in all human beings too so i guess it's hard. I do it. We all have someone we'd rather be paired with over this person or that person. And it's hard not to want to be like the most smart or popular kid when you're young. It's hard. But we all have to learn that, to be yourself is the best. Because that's the way people will accept you. But there's always this fear, that you can't completely know the person, but once you get to know more, you either dislike or like the person even more and fear you'll lose that friend. aish. part and parcel of life. huhuhu I wasn't planning to do down on both days for SOCIP, i mean dude i have so much shit to be done, but i don't know - i don't know what would have happened if i wasn't there. Everyone was so busy teaching the kid, some couldn't control the kids (they were like me last time...couldn't bear or did not know how to shush these kids cos you're so afraid you'd hurt their ego..but you honestly have no idea how big people's ego are until you hurt them..not saying you should.. but all relationships take time..), or taking care of the new kids who popped by without prior notice. And i kinda just promised a kid i'll be there on tues. lul I have grown so much in university i feel. But because i've grown, i have more questions than answers, knowing there's so much i don't, and i want to experience more of it. So this semester's to me juggling research, cca, studies. Maybe it's cos i don't know what i really want. Or i just seem to get interested in things too easily...and thinking that i can do it. But i feel much better this semester because it's abit clearer now. Last sem was bad, because i was so lost, depressed over studies and cca, people..at least CAP didn't drop. (i really expected a big drop, if it really did i would've been much sadder T_T) This sem i feel happier. But also a little empty, because i have to always do something and not much time for myself per se. Though ironically i am typing this after 2 hours of 'cheese in the trap' BAHAHAHAHA kdramas are needed in my life i guess LOL That drama is seriously relatable because it's about university life, the shit, the craziness, the stress, the excitement and the damn beautiful campus dayumm gonna apply exchange there, SET.
24 Feb, Wed, 3pm Rain is stopping. Probably heading down to buy my watch later. Haven't worn a watch for years because i always get the cheap ones at bugis and it never fails to spoil lol. But i have to get it because i need to do timestamps for my SGH research, and i can't hold my phone and the recorder at the same time..so bulky. Had SOCIP yesterday. Boy, these kids are so naughty, but the volunteers were too nice to scold them. It's so funny, they all remind me of myself. You know if you asked the Amelia 2 years ago if she'd ever think she'd be here today she'll probably say it's impossible. University life has really been a great game changer for me, if you say life's a game. I've never imagined that i could do so many things, have such good friends in my life. I think hanging out with people at a different lifestage from you gives you so many perspectives. Sometimes i try to go back to the mentality when i had when i was a kid, i mean since i'm teaching some kids, (so i was thinking) how can i get into the same frequency as them to make them listen to me? There was this kid who drew himself with a sad face, with the words "I'm a retainer" on his working paper when i was teaching him math. He's 13 but in Primary 6. When i saw it i immediately used my pencil and changed it into a smiley face and I said "Why did you draw a sad face..of course i knew..ah what did i say after..? i forgot. Something along the lines of "i'll help you?" anyway i'll try my best to help these kids. and i'll try my best not to compare kids because it's the thing i hate the most. I hate being compared. But it's something that's innate in all human beings too so i guess it's hard. I do it. We all have someone we'd rather be paired with over this person or that person. And it's hard not to want to be like the most smart or popular kid when you're young. It's hard. But we all have to learn that, to be yourself is the best. Because that's the way people will accept you. But there's always this fear, that you can't completely know the person, but once you get to know more, you either dislike or like the person even more and fear you'll lose that friend. aish. part and parcel of life. huhuhu I wasn't planning to do down on both days for SOCIP, i mean dude i have so much shit to be done, but i don't know - i don't know what would have happened if i wasn't there. Everyone was so busy teaching the kid, some couldn't control the kids (they were like me last time...couldn't bear or did not know how to shush these kids cos you're so afraid you'd hurt their ego..but you honestly have no idea how big people's ego are until you hurt them..not saying you should.. but all relationships take time..), or taking care of the new kids who popped by without prior notice. And i kinda just promised a kid i'll be there on tues. lul I have grown so much in university i feel. But because i've grown, i have more questions than answers, knowing there's so much i don't, and i want to experience more of it. So this semester's to me juggling research, cca, studies. Maybe it's cos i don't know what i really want. Or i just seem to get interested in things too easily...and thinking that i can do it. But i feel much better this semester because it's abit clearer now. Last sem was bad, because i was so lost, depressed over studies and cca, people..at least CAP didn't drop. (i really expected a big drop, if it really did i would've been much sadder T_T) This sem i feel happier. But also a little empty, because i have to always do something and not much time for myself per se. Though ironically i am typing this after 2 hours of 'cheese in the trap' BAHAHAHAHA kdramas are needed in my life i guess LOL That drama is seriously relatable because it's about university life, the shit, the craziness, the stress, the excitement and the damn beautiful campus dayumm gonna apply exchange there, SET.
“To put away aimlessness and weakness, and to begin to think with purpose, is to enter the ranks of those strong ones who only recognize failure as one of the pathways to attainment; who make all conditions serve them, and who think strongly, attempt fearlessly, and accomplish masterfully.”
- James Allen Quotes
Sometimes I wonder how people see me and what they think of me. It scares me a bit, honestly. I am sure though, that what they think of me,
what they think my life is, is a complete misperception. I have always tried to show myself as a carefree person, as someone who wont get bothered
because of public judgements. I am sure my friend and family think there is nothing going wrong in my life, that I do not worry enough, that
I am always happy. And I am sure they probably somewhat hate me for it because, lets admit it, there is nothing worse than seeing someone
who is life seems so perfect while yours is a complete mess. Truth is, I have become an expert at pretending. I think we are all experts
or at least we are getting there.
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: Amelia Lim, 20 October.