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Started this blog during the last few weeks of SEM1(AY2014/15) cos' i regained interest in blogging. I blog about anything - news, social issues, music - but mostly about my university life :) Hope my posts will help you to make better life (and module) choices! Currently a Sociology Major. Still fresh. xD
Honestly, some people are hard to be around. Sometimes they suck the life out of you, and the best part - they don't even know. It just doesn't appear to them in their consciousness and subconsciousness. Meaning they don't even care.
Why? I don't know. Maybe because they don't care as much as you do.
We have expectations - even as much as I try to lower my expectations so I wouldn't be so..wounded and disappointed, it still hits me hard.
But after every hit, you become more resilient and smart.
And you'd try to empathise, try to think from their perspective..
Sometimes,it works.Yea, i get it, we are all busy people, and we have our bad days. So it's okay. I won't let that bug me.
Sometimes, you have absolutely no idea why people will treat you this way. You try to be aware of your emotions that you're feeling, and ask yourself why you feel this way about these issues, and it all boils down to expectations.
"I just...didn't expect that from you."
"Was it really.. too much to ask?"
Yea, regardless, we are all busy people, and we have our bad days. That's only human.
But it makes you feel like shit. It sucks. It only gets worse, but you will only get more resilient.
More resilient, but hopefully, not more cold-hearted.
Hopefully i won't let it put out the flame i always held.
It's kinda stupid, you know. But people still do it. They put themselves out there for you, asking for you, sometimes you have no idea why - even when you reject, they will still ask, without fail and you wonder why.
And i do that too, and i wonder why.
Why would you wanna put yourself out there, go through the same shit, rejections, disappointments, get hurt so badly, and then you repeat. it. again. To the same people, and to people you meet.
Isn't it tiring?
Why do we still do it?
Because we'd rather get hurt by the answers than not trying, not reaching out for you at all.
Because if we'd put ourselves out there, we'd at least have a chance.
A chance that keeps us going, albeit sometimes we are too idealistic, dreamy, whatever. It doesn't matter.
Because honestly, if we never try, we'll never know.
If we never asked, we'll never know.
So, we try. We ask.
But you know what's worse? Sometimes you ask, and you get ignored.
And this is the reason we use to numb the pain -
'Yea, regardless, we are all busy people, and we have our bad days. That's only human.'
Ignoring is the worse, really. Don't leave people hanging. I try not to do that.
I am not complaining. I'm willing to get hurt by the answers than not hearing it at all.
Because I hold on to that hope - and those who help me realise it, keeps me going.
I hope i will continue to have the courage to get hurt. I hope i don't ever lose it.
Honestly, some people are hard to be around. Sometimes they suck the life out of you, and the best part - they don't even know. It just doesn't appear to them in their consciousness and subconsciousness. Meaning they don't even care.
Why? I don't know. Maybe because they don't care as much as you do.
We have expectations - even as much as I try to lower my expectations so I wouldn't be so..wounded and disappointed, it still hits me hard.
But after every hit, you become more resilient and smart.
And you'd try to empathise, try to think from their perspective..
Sometimes,it works.Yea, i get it, we are all busy people, and we have our bad days. So it's okay. I won't let that bug me.
Sometimes, you have absolutely no idea why people will treat you this way. You try to be aware of your emotions that you're feeling, and ask yourself why you feel this way about these issues, and it all boils down to expectations.
"I just...didn't expect that from you."
"Was it really.. too much to ask?"
Yea, regardless, we are all busy people, and we have our bad days. That's only human.
But it makes you feel like shit. It sucks. It only gets worse, but you will only get more resilient.
More resilient, but hopefully, not more cold-hearted.
Hopefully i won't let it put out the flame i always held.
It's kinda stupid, you know. But people still do it. They put themselves out there for you, asking for you, sometimes you have no idea why - even when you reject, they will still ask, without fail and you wonder why.
And i do that too, and i wonder why.
Why would you wanna put yourself out there, go through the same shit, rejections, disappointments, get hurt so badly, and then you repeat. it. again. To the same people, and to people you meet.
Isn't it tiring?
Why do we still do it?
Because we'd rather get hurt by the answers than not trying, not reaching out for you at all.
Because if we'd put ourselves out there, we'd at least have a chance.
A chance that keeps us going, albeit sometimes we are too idealistic, dreamy, whatever. It doesn't matter.
Because honestly, if we never try, we'll never know.
If we never asked, we'll never know.
So, we try. We ask.
But you know what's worse? Sometimes you ask, and you get ignored.
And this is the reason we use to numb the pain -
'Yea, regardless, we are all busy people, and we have our bad days. That's only human.'
Ignoring is the worse, really. Don't leave people hanging. I try not to do that.
I am not complaining. I'm willing to get hurt by the answers than not hearing it at all.
Because I hold on to that hope - and those who help me realise it, keeps me going.
I hope i will continue to have the courage to get hurt. I hope i don't ever lose it.
“To put away aimlessness and weakness, and to begin to think with purpose, is to enter the ranks of those strong ones who only recognize failure as one of the pathways to attainment; who make all conditions serve them, and who think strongly, attempt fearlessly, and accomplish masterfully.”
- James Allen Quotes
Sometimes I wonder how people see me and what they think of me. It scares me a bit, honestly. I am sure though, that what they think of me,
what they think my life is, is a complete misperception. I have always tried to show myself as a carefree person, as someone who wont get bothered
because of public judgements. I am sure my friend and family think there is nothing going wrong in my life, that I do not worry enough, that
I am always happy. And I am sure they probably somewhat hate me for it because, lets admit it, there is nothing worse than seeing someone
who is life seems so perfect while yours is a complete mess. Truth is, I have become an expert at pretending. I think we are all experts
or at least we are getting there.
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: Amelia Lim, 20 October.