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Started this blog during the last few weeks of SEM1(AY2014/15) cos' i regained interest in blogging. I blog about anything - news, social issues, music - but mostly about my university life :) Hope my posts will help you to make better life (and module) choices! Currently a Sociology Major. Still fresh. xD

: Amelia Lim, 20 October.
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I'm feeling stuck again haha. Stuck because i don't know how to go from here. It's a different kinda 'stuck' from last sem. Last sem was the hopeless kinda 'stuck'. Haha now's the kinda 'stuck' where i want to do something but can't seem to be able to do it. I'll be able to do it soon, i will find something.

I've been really lazy since i came back from Cambodia and eczema flaring up now and then doesn't help at all. I just feel sore at my neck and arms. I don't feel like moving, its so painful it really sucks. Recently i tried Aesop's products and it's really good. The parsely seed oil cleanser works for me. But it's like $77 for 200ml zz. $53 for 100ml. I'm gonna get it later for Korea.

Anyway I really wanted to do reflections for human library and my Cambodia internship but haven't found the time to do it. The first 2 weeks when i came back was spent on meeting up with friends, doing ad-hoc jobs to earn money (1our.today/IVLE HAHA), and yea went back to SOCIP for a while. I feel really homely there hahaha.


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Okay human library 1st. I had conversations with many books. There's this 18 years old girl (Annabelle) who follows her mum to central vietnam to help the poor. They're abandoned by North and South Vietnam (after the Vietnam War, i think), both governments refuse to help them. They also restrict outsiders from coming in and only her mum's friend who operates an NGO there has the permit to enter and help these people. They travel around vietnam and help people, they rarely go back to the same place. When i told her about my internship, she was afraid that it would be voluntourism, harming instead of helping. She seemed skeptical about OCIPs. If we were only going to go there once, wouldn't it hurt when we leave.

You knew you were going to leave, so why did you even bother to start something.

So even if i know i will not return to Cambodia, should i not go?

But it's those happy memories you bring to them, and they really appreciate it. The look in their eyes tell you, thank you, and that's enough. Haha that's what her mum told her. Just another perspective.

My friends have also told me, why are you spending money to go overseas and help others when there's so many people who need help in Singapore?

There's this other book I met, and she (Wan Fong) gave another perspective to this question. She studied in cambridge, and when she asked her professor where should she do her autism research, her prof told her -  Over here, autism awareness is high. There are policies and structures that help people understand what's autism and how to handle it. But in Ghana, there are no such systems. Which country will you be able to value add more with your knowledge and skills?

So she went Ghana, and on the way she met a woman who taught sewing to women who were abandoned or sexually exploited. She came back to Singapore and raised funds for her, and now they've got more sewing machines and are pretty sustainable, selling the textiles they make.

Another cool thing about her is that she wanted to study in North Korea. Haha, although she didn't get in, she managed to visit NK. Makes me think if i should visit NK instead of Japan after my exchange. Isn't it more cool. And cheaper. HAHAHA

Those were the more memorable conversations. I had one with a bikepacker and another guy who started something like HONY, but it asks you, who or what had the greatest influence on the person you are today. Haha when he asked me, I was thinking of JJ Lin's song twilight -

I'm feeling stuck again haha. Stuck because i don't know how to go from here. It's a different kinda 'stuck' from last sem. Last sem was the hopeless kinda 'stuck'. Haha now's the kinda 'stuck' where i want to do something but can't seem to be able to do it. I'll be able to do it soon, i will find something.

I've been really lazy since i came back from Cambodia and eczema flaring up now and then doesn't help at all. I just feel sore at my neck and arms. I don't feel like moving, its so painful it really sucks. Recently i tried Aesop's products and it's really good. The parsely seed oil cleanser works for me. But it's like $77 for 200ml zz. $53 for 100ml. I'm gonna get it later for Korea.

Anyway I really wanted to do reflections for human library and my Cambodia internship but haven't found the time to do it. The first 2 weeks when i came back was spent on meeting up with friends, doing ad-hoc jobs to earn money (1our.today/IVLE HAHA), and yea went back to SOCIP for a while. I feel really homely there hahaha.


-

Okay human library 1st. I had conversations with many books. There's this 18 years old girl (Annabelle) who follows her mum to central vietnam to help the poor. They're abandoned by North and South Vietnam (after the Vietnam War, i think), both governments refuse to help them. They also restrict outsiders from coming in and only her mum's friend who operates an NGO there has the permit to enter and help these people. They travel around vietnam and help people, they rarely go back to the same place. When i told her about my internship, she was afraid that it would be voluntourism, harming instead of helping. She seemed skeptical about OCIPs. If we were only going to go there once, wouldn't it hurt when we leave.

You knew you were going to leave, so why did you even bother to start something.

So even if i know i will not return to Cambodia, should i not go?

But it's those happy memories you bring to them, and they really appreciate it. The look in their eyes tell you, thank you, and that's enough. Haha that's what her mum told her. Just another perspective.

My friends have also told me, why are you spending money to go overseas and help others when there's so many people who need help in Singapore?

There's this other book I met, and she (Wan Fong) gave another perspective to this question. She studied in cambridge, and when she asked her professor where should she do her autism research, her prof told her -  Over here, autism awareness is high. There are policies and structures that help people understand what's autism and how to handle it. But in Ghana, there are no such systems. Which country will you be able to value add more with your knowledge and skills?

So she went Ghana, and on the way she met a woman who taught sewing to women who were abandoned or sexually exploited. She came back to Singapore and raised funds for her, and now they've got more sewing machines and are pretty sustainable, selling the textiles they make.

Another cool thing about her is that she wanted to study in North Korea. Haha, although she didn't get in, she managed to visit NK. Makes me think if i should visit NK instead of Japan after my exchange. Isn't it more cool. And cheaper. HAHAHA

Those were the more memorable conversations. I had one with a bikepacker and another guy who started something like HONY, but it asks you, who or what had the greatest influence on the person you are today. Haha when he asked me, I was thinking of JJ Lin's song twilight -

Sometimes I wonder how people see me and what they think of me. It scares me a bit, honestly. I am sure though, that what they think of me, what they think my life is, is a complete misperception. I have always tried to show myself as a carefree person, as someone who wont get bothered because of public judgements. I am sure my friend and family think there is nothing going wrong in my life, that I do not worry enough, that I am always happy. And I am sure they probably somewhat hate me for it because, lets admit it, there is nothing worse than seeing someone who is life seems so perfect while yours is a complete mess. Truth is, I have become an expert at pretending. I think we are all experts or at least we are getting there.

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